20260312 Śrīla Prabhupāda The Jaladuta Diary 1965

mūkaṁ karoti vācālaṁ paṅguṁ laṅghayate girim
yat-kṛpā tam ahaṁ vande śrī-gurun dina tāriṇam
paramānanda-mādhavam śrī caitanya īśvaram
Harihi oṁ tat sat

Jayapatākā Swami: Are devotees here from the Safari? (No!) We are looking at a Smartboard which can show videos and presentations. We have mounted it on the wall back here. I have a stand where we can move it around. But which is better. Can you all see the wall behind me? There is a curtain there. Do you see the curtain? So, I don’t know if the people here in the side can see it. But if you moved it up then we can see it. What do you think? I don’t understand! I want them to see! If they cannot see what is the use! Alright, tell me later.

Text Eight

tumi mor cira sāthī bhuliyā māyār lāthi
khāiyāchi janma-janmāntare
āji punaḥ e sujoga jadi hoy jogāyoga
tabe pāri tuhe milibāre

tumi—You; mora—my; cira-sāthī—perpetual companion; bhuliyā—forgetting; māyāra—of illusion; lāthi—kicks; khāiyāchi—I am suffering; janma-janmāntare—birth after birth; āji—today; punaḥ—again; e—this; su-yoga—opportunity; yadi haya—if it is; yogāyoga—association; tabe—then; pāri—I am able; tuhe milibāre—to meet You.

O Lord Kṛṣṇa, You are my eternal companion. Forgetting You, I have suffered the kicks of māyā birth after birth. If today the chance to meet You occurs again, then I will surely be able to rejoin You.

Text Nine

tomāra milane bhāi ābār se sukha pāi
gocārane ghuri din bhor
kata bane chuṭāchuṭi bane khāi luṭāpuṭi
sei din kabe habe mor

tomāra—Your; milane—in the meeting; bhāi—O dear friend; ābāra—once more; se sukha—that happiness; pāi—I will experience; go-cāraṇe—tending the cows; ghuri—I will wander; dina bhora—all through the day; kata vane—in so many forests; chuṭāchuṭi—joking and frolicking; vane—in the forest; khāi—I relish; luṭāpuṭi—rolling on the ground; sei dina—that day; kabe—when; habe mora—it will be mine.

O dear friend, in Your company I will experience great joy once again. In the early morning I will wander about the cowherd pastures and fields. Running and frolicking in the many forests of Vraja, I will roll on the ground in spiritual ecstasy. Oh when will that day be mine?

Text Ten

āji se subidhāne tomāra smaraṇa bhela
baro āśā ḍākilām tāi
āmi tomāra nitya-dāsa tāi kori eta āśa
tumi binā anya gati nāi

āji—today; se—that; su-vidhāne—in a nice way; tomāra—Your; smaraṇa—remembrance; bhela—happened; baḍa āśā—great longing; ḍākilāma—I called out; tāi—just so; āmi—I; tomāra—Your; nitya-dāsa—eternal servant; tāi—just so; kari—I maintain; eta āśa—such a desire; tumi vinā—other than You; anya gati—another refuge; nāi—there is not.

Today that remembrance of You came to me in a very nice way. Because I have a great longing I called to You. I am Your eternal servant and therefore I desire Your association so much. O Lord Kṛṣṇa, except for You there is no other means of success.

(refrain) Text One (repeat)

kṛṣṇa taba puṇya habe bhāi
e-puṇya koribe jabe rādhārāṇī khusī habe
dhruva ati boli tomā tāi

Mārkine Bhāgavata-dharma

by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda

at Boston Harbor, September 18, 1965 JD 8.2: Mārkine Bhāgavata-dharma

baro-kṛpā kaile kṛṣṇa adhamer prati
ki lāgiyānile hethā koro ebe gati

My dear Lord Kṛṣṇa, You are so kind upon this useless soul, but I do not know why You have brought me here. Now You can do whatever You like with me.

āche kichu kārja taba ei anumāne
nahe keno āniben ei ugra-sthāne

But I guess You have some business here, otherwise why would You bring me to this terrible place?

rajas tamo guṇe erā sabāi ācchanna
bāsudeb-kathā ruci nahe se prasanna

Most of the population here is covered by the material modes of ignorance and passion. Absorbed in material life, they think themselves very happy and satisfied, and therefore they have no taste for the transcendental message of Vāsudeva. I do not know how they will be able to understand it.

tabe jadi taba kṛpā hoy ahaitukī
sakal-i sambhava hoy tumi se kautukī

But I know Your causeless mercy can make everything possible because You are the most expert mystic.

ki bhāve bujhāle tārā bujhe sei rasa
eta kṛpā koro prabhu kori nija-baśa

How will they understand the mellows of devotional service? O Lord, I am simply praying for Your mercy so that I will be able to convince them about Your message.

tomāra icchāya saba hoy māyā-baśa
tomāra icchāya nāśa māyār paraśa

All living entities have come under the control of the illusory energy by Your will, and therefore, if You like, by Your will they can also be released from the clutches of illusion.

taba icchā hoy jadi tādera uddhār
bujhibe niścai tabe kathā se tomār

I wish that You may deliver them. Therefore if You so desire their deliverance, then only will they be able to understand Your message.

bhāgavater kathā se taba avatār
dhīra haiyā śune jadi kāne bār bār

The words of Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam are Your incarnation, and if a sober person repeatedly receives it with submissive aural reception, then he will be able to understand Your message.

It is said in the Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam (1.2.17-21):

śrnvatāṁ sva-kathāḥ kṛṣṇaḥ
punya-śravaṇa-kīrtanaḥ
hṛdy antaḥ-stho hy abhadrāṇi
vidhunoti suhṛt satām

naṣṭa-prāyeṣv abhadreṣu
nityaṁ bhāgavata-sevayā
bhagavaty uttama-śloke
bhaktir bhavati naiṣṭhikī

tadā rajas-tamo-bhāvāḥ
kāma-lobhādayaś ca ye
ceta etair anāviddhaṁ
sthitaṁ sattve prasīdati

evaṁ prasanna-manaso
bhagavad-bhakti-yogataḥ
bhagavat-tattva-vijñānaṁ
mukta-saṅgasya jāyate

bhidyate hṛdaya-granthiś
chidyante sarva-saṁśayāḥ
kṣīyante cāsya karmāṇi
dṛṣṭa evātmanīśvare

"Śrī Kṛṣṇa, the Personality of Godhead, who is the Paramātmā [Supersoul] in everyone's heart and the benefactor of the truthful devotee, cleanses desire for material enjoyment from the heart of the devotee who has developed the urge to hear His messages, which are in themselves virtuous when properly heard and chanted. By regular attendance in classes on the Bhāgavatam and by rendering of service to the pure devotee, all that is troublesome to the heart is almost completely destroyed, and loving service unto the Personality of Godhead, who is praised with transcendental songs, is established as an irrevocable fact. As soon as irrevocable loving service is established in the heart, the effects of nature's modes of passion and ignorance, such as lust, desire and hankering, disappear from the heart. Then the devotee is established in goodness, and he becomes completely happy. Thus established in the mode of unalloyed goodness, the man whose mind has been enlivened by contact with devotional service to the Lord gains positive scientific knowledge of the Personality of Godhead in the stage of liberation from all material association. Thus the knot in the heart is pierced, and all misgivings are cut to pieces. The chain of fruitive actions is terminated when one sees the self as master."

rajas tamo hate tabe pāibe nistār
hṛdayer abhadra sate ghucibe tāhār

He will become liberated from the influence of the modes of ignorance and passion and thus all inauspicious things accumulated in the core of the heart will disappear.

ki ko're bujhābo kathā baro sei cāhi
khudra āmi dīna hīna kono śakti nāhi

How will I make them understand this message of Kṛṣṇa consciousness? I am very unfortunate, unqualified and the most fallen. Therefore I am seeking Your benediction so that I can convince them, for I am powerless to do so on my own.

athaca enecho prabhu kathā bolibāre
je tomār icchā prabhu koro ei bāre

Somehow or other, O Lord, You have brought me here to speak about You. Now, my Lord, it is up to You to make me a success or failure as You like.

akhila jagat-guru! bacana se āmār
alaṅkṛta koribār khamatā tomār

O spiritual master of all the worlds! I can simply repeat Your message, so if You like You can make my power of speaking suitable for their understanding.

taba kṛpā ha'le mor kathā śuddha habe
śuniyā sabāra śoka duḥkha je ghucibe

Only by Your causeless mercy will my words become pure. I am sure that when this transcendental message penetrates their hearts they will certainly feel engladdened and thus become liberated from all unhappy conditions of life.

āniyācho jadi prabhu āmāre nācāte
nācāo nācāo prabhu nācāo se-mate
kāṣṭhera puttali jathā nācāo se-mate

O Lord, I am just like a puppet in Your hands. So if You have brought me here to dance, then make me dance, make me dance, O Lord, make me dance as You like.

bhakti nāi beda nāi nāme khub daro
"bhaktivedānta" nām ebe sārthak kor

I have no devotion, nor do I have any knowledge, but I have strong faith in the holy name of Kṛṣṇa. I have been designated as Bhaktivedānta, and now, if You like, You can fulfill the real purport of Bhaktivedānta.

Signed-the most unfortunate, insignificant beggar

A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami,

on board the ship Jaladuta, Commonwealth Pier,
Boston, Massachusetts, U.S.A.
dated 18th of September, 1965

Jayapatākā Swami: We can see how Śrīla Prabhupāda was praying – he said I have no devotion or knowledge, I am very fallen – nachao – make me dance as You want! It is not that, alright, I have come here to deliver the people and so on, he was completely surrendered to Kṛṣṇa! He knew that it was a very daunting thing, to preach to the people in the West, in the USA, Canada, where people are in the mode of ignorance and passioṇ. It was hard to convince them they are not the body, they are the spirit souls, he was praying to Kṛṣṇa! We should take inspiration from Śrīla Prabhupāda, that we should think that without the mercy of Lord Kṛṣṇa, without the mercy of Lord Caitanya, without the mercy of guru and Gaurāṅga, we cannot do anything! So Śrīla Prabhupāda was in this humble state of mind and he was able to convince people! So, people say so many thingṣ. But when we study this, we see the complete surrendered attitude of His Divine Grace! And I think people go to the West, America, think that this is the land of richness and so oṇ, Śrīla Prabhupāda is saying You have brought me to this terrible place, ugra-sthāna! I have to tell these people Your message. But how will they understand? How will they accept it? Everything is possible by Your mercy, without your mercy, it is impossible! So like this he was humbly praying for the mercy of Lord Kṛṣṇa! It is really overwhelming! I am one of the people who was delivered by Śrīla Prabhupāda! Of course, all of you are byproducts of that! In turn, you have to be delivering many other people! So, here we see the example, how His Divine Grace praying to Kṛṣṇa, for His blessings!

Kṛṣṇe matir astu!